Life can really suck sometimes. This website and blog is about filtering out the “suckiness” and focusing on the good by finding what makes you happy and embracing those people, objects, and experiences. You only get one shot at this life, so you might as well do everything you can to make the most of it.
So, let’s create our own happiness by focusing on the positive things in life, like traveling, spending time with friends and family, making new friends, improving ourselves and our lives, eating delicious food, and exploring new things. Along the way, I plan to share my story, thoughts, and experiences, both good and bad, in hopes that it might help you or offer some semblance of guidance or comfort if you are in a similar situation. And while I know that while my experiences are unique to me, I am not special. There are others who are in, or have been in, similar situations. So, I also hope that to receive any words of wisdom or encouragement that you might have to offer.
I’m not a “happiness expert” or someone trying to sell miracles. I’m just a normal person on my own personal journey. I want more than anything to share this with you. I want to help you create your own happiness as I do the same. We will celebrate our imperfections (or at least learn to live with them or make them better if we cannot) and reach for our goals, especially the ones that scare us.
My name is Aimie. I live in the Dayton, Ohio metropolitan area with my husband and our four dogs. I’m an artist/graphic designer, professional blogger, entrepreneur, and game/software developer with a Master’s in Software Engineering. All of these things are part of who I am, but they don’t completely define me.
I’m what I like to call a lemon. In other, harsher words, I’m broken. I’m imperfect. My life is far from what I planned so many years ago, and I have been letting that knowledge hold me back for far too long. I say this not to elicit sympathy but to explain why I have started down this path and what I hope to accomplish.
Over the years, I have suffered from general and social anxiety and depression, sometimes severe, and there have been days when I didn’t know if it would ever get better. While I have always (somehow) held on to just enough of a glimmer of hope to keep going, I foolishly believed that it would be some instantaneous, dramatic event that would change my life.
One day I will win the lottery. One day I will learn how to do this one thing and become so great at it that all my worries will subside. One day I will wake up without irrational fear and I’ll finally be “normal.” I won’t be weird or socially awkward. I won’t need a nap after spending a few hours with other people. I won’t have to hide my pain at family gatherings as I watch all the little kids running around. I’ll wake up and all of these things will have been magically fixed.
So I never tried to pull myself up, at least not in any significant way. I did what I could just to get by while I waited for “one day” to come. After years of waiting and nearly losing all hope, I have realized that this big, dramatic change is never going to happen. I don’t play the lottery. I’m always going to have something to worry about. And I’ll probably always be weird. But all of these things are not the end of the world. In fact, I’m learning that some of these things are actually not all that bad. Sure, I’m weird, but who isn’t?
Happiness is not something that is going to just fall into my lap. It won’t happen automatically. It’s something we all have to create for ourselves, and there is never going to be a “cure-all” solution that prevents us from feeling sadness or anger ever again.
I may never know what it’s like to wake up without anxiety. I may never be completely free from my irrational thoughts and the inner voices that hold me down. But I’m going to work like hell to make each day a little better than the last. I’ll find one more reason to smile or one more memory to cherish.