100 Days of Code: Day 75
100 Days of Code, Round 1
Goals For Today:
React for Web Designers
I finished the ‘React for Web Designers’ course earlier this afternoon and claimed my certificate of completion. I knew I only had a little bit left, so it was a bit of a relief to find that the last project was mostly completed. The rest was mostly about filling in the blanks, connecting the API, and getting it all working properly.
Find out more about the final project by reading my brief post from yesterday, 100 Days of Code: Day 74.
On a side note, there is another React course that I want to check out on Lynda.com. It is a full-stack react course, so it covers an entire React application, from start to finish. This is different from the last course, which focused primarily on integrating React components into an existing site. That was perfect for just getting started with the basics of React, but now I want to know more. I feel like I’ve only just begun to brush the surface.
Can you believe I’m already 75% through with my first round of 100 Days of Code?!
At around 1:15 this morning, I woke up in a panic thinking about the next 25 days. There are still so many things left to learn! I am feeling an increasing pressure to find a job, preferably within the web development field. It relates so closely to my Master’s degree and is almost the entire purpose of these last 75+ days.
I started wondering, once again, if I would ever be smart enough to get a job in IT or if I was fooling myself into thinking I could hack it. Am I setting myself up for nothing but more failure and disappointment? I’ve worked so hard over the past 5 years to try to put myself in a better position financially and mentally. I got my degree. I started a business. I began this coding adventure.
Was it worth it? Or Is this where it all falls apart? I truly hope not.
Learning To Be Brave
After I was finally able to go back to sleep, hours later, I woke up and saw that I had a message from Andrew’s step-mom. She sent it last night, but unfortunately I did not see it until this morning.
It was a Ted talk about learning to be brave instead of perfect. I don’t know how she knew I needed it, but watching this video drastically lifted my mood and changed the outcome of my entire day.
Instead of dwelling on the fact that I am tired, my anxiety is terrible, and I have less than a month to get my poo together, I had something positive to think about.
… What if I stop trying to be perfect and instead try to find the courage to fail — or succeed?
… What if I stop self-sabotaging and learn to accept myself for who I am, flaws and all? I’ve always been my own worst enemy because I am terrified of being judged or failing at something. I can’t even play video games without feeling pressure to be the best, have perfect aim, stay within the lines, or score on every shot taken.
… What if I learned to stop aiming for perfection and just live in the moment?
What does it take to have that kind of courage?
Reshma Saujani said in the video that boys are raised to be brave while girls are raised to be perfect, but I don’t necessarily think that is true. It is partially true, but this concept of being perfect extends far past any gender role. I know men who are just as afraid of failing or being judged. I would even argue that this is part of the reason why so many men are unable or unwilling to talk about their feelings. They don’t want to be judged or seen as less than a man.
Man up. Don’t be a baby. Crying is for girls. You know what I’m talking about.
Feelings aside, what separates us, the perfectionists, from them, the brave? What makes us so fearful while they are able to thrive under the same conditions?
How on earth can I find a way to be just a little bit braver?
In case you can’t tell, I am in a bit of a contemplative mood today. I have a lot to think about and still so much to learn.