Reasons to Stay Alive
As soon as I finished the project, I shared my certificate on Twitter and ran away for the rest of the morning/early afternoon. I started listening to Matt Haig’s book ‘Reasons to Stay Alive‘ while I was sorting through my task list and Trello boards, and I got completely swept away by the book.
That’s the odd thing about anxiety and depression. It acts like an intense fear of happiness, even as you, yourself, consciously want that happiness more than anything. So, if it catches you smiling, even fake smiling, then, well, that stuff’s just not allowed and you know it. So here comes ten tons of counterbalance.
Seriously, this guy has such a way of explaining his personal feelings of anxiety and depression that there were times I had to pause and remind myself how to breathe. It left me simultaneously anxious and hopeful, which was a rather bizarre feeling. I’m just shy of 75% through the book but I can already say it is, without a doubt, one of my absolute favorite pieces of nonfiction. I can’t wait to dive into some of his other books (fiction and nonfiction), including ‘How to Stop Time‘ (already on my bookshelf) and his brand spankin’ new book ‘Notes on a Nervous Planet’ once it is available in the US.
I’M ON CLOUD NUMBER NINE. I AM ANNOYING EVEN MYSELF. NOTES ON A NERVOUS PLANET IS GOING TO GO IN AT NUMBER ONE! NUMBER ONE! I AM SO RELIEVED. I HAVE THE BEST READERS AND PUBLISHERS. THANK YOU! I AM WEARING MY ZEUS T-SHIRT AND I AM LIVING IN BLOCK CAPS FOR EVER. THIS SUMMER ROCKS.
— Matt Haig (@matthaig1) July 10, 2018
Eventually, I took a little break to eat