100 Days of Code: Day 48
100 Days of Code, Round 1
Goals For Today:
The Good & Bad
I’m not feeling great today, so it has been a little bit harder mentally to stay on task. I normally try to sleep the day away when I feel this tired and crummy, but because of this challenge, I haven’t allowed myself to do that.
One of the coolest parts of this experience is seeing how far I have come in accepting this as being my journey and no one else’s.
Too often, I hold myself to an unreasonably high standard. If person A is capable of mastering a concept in 20 minutes, I should be able to keep up or exceed that goal. Otherwise, I am failing because I am “too slow”, “too dumb”, or any other self-deprecating thing I can imagine.
That is the mindset that I had when I began this challenge 1.5 months ago. I started out thinking that I was going to learn almost everything, have a massive 300+ project portfolio, and walk away from the challenge as an expert because I should be able to replicate the successes that everyone else has had (yes, all at once).
Even today, I was hesitant to reveal that I’d spent nearly 3 hours on the last 3 algorithm challenges because I know that this is very slow and it shows weakness that I don’t necessarily want others to see. But that’s the thing… it took me 3 hours, but I finished. I didn’t get frustrated and give up. I kept going and finished what I started.
I’m learning to accept the fact that sometimes other people are just going to be better/faster/smarter in certain areas, but that doesn’t make me less than anything or anyone. We’re just different people. They are on their journey and I am on mine.